get your pen out fool

i do hope no one is really reading

because again. im just going to rant and rave

it has been raining for the past 3 days. making outtings few and far between.
not many people want to take a water drenched walk to the mall, just to realize we have no money for any of this stuff.
and im feeling stir crazy. what am i doing. a month in budapest? i feel like ive been sitting on my bum for the majority of the time. a few challenging things to think about
but think is all there is too do.
and i know i know this isnt all a waste of time. but this damn rain has put me in FUNK

yes thats right a funk.

even looking back at the pictures of me when the sun loved my skin. i looked younger. happier.

argh i guess ill just drink this coke.

only the third dose of caffeine for the day

sea lion

christians...or whatever title you want to give yourself

we have to realize, we live in the world.

i mean its something said over again probably

maybe

sometimes (me included) i think we choose to be naive to the things in this world. we would rather be starry eyed followers of Jesus then people who know whats going on and get involved.
there are things running/ruining our world. and unless we get inbloved in decisions being made (goverment) bla bla bla

the thing is we need to not do things half ass. in a lot of things..God gave us gifts...there are things that probably come naturally and things that may not so much but may be a passion. we need to practise those things. refine those things. become good at those things. and use them to further the kingdom

no sitting of our bums wondering why the world is going to hell.

its going to hell when we stand silent. and i guess i do that a lot. so now im learning.

get over your insecurities and do it. try it. be it. live it. learn it.

the end

disclaimer: heaps of what i said may be crap or not make sense. search through the crap and find some truth would ya?

tired today,

lack of sleep,

dreams so far away.

all i want to do

is rest my head

relax my weary bones.

my brain wont function

the way they say it should

the way they say it could.

but maybe the rights

are wrongs

the upsides

are downsides

and those things in you

are whats really in me

The Police

Im just going to take a little bit of time.

to just write

i dont know really what im going to write about

but i figure not a lot of people check this page anymore. so heck why not.

but you know when songs exhilarate you.

they just give you an energy in your bones.

i love it. i love that music can do that to you.

like the song "Dont stand so close to me" i didnt think it would be one of those songs

but we watched a Glee episode(yep i got sucked in)

and now whenever i listen to it im just like YEA IM IN A MUSICAL.

arts do that to ya. i mean thats nothing profound

im discovering more. about arts...and i love writing
sure i suck at spelling
and punctuation

but i love it.

its comfortable. epic.

sometimes i swear hicups are contagious. like right now i can hear a girl outside my door hicupping and i swear i can feel it rising up in me

a singular hicup

waitig to lurch out of my throat.

i hate hicups.

what are my other thoughts of the day...

sugar.

dont you hate it when you have to much and then your uber tired. but A D D at the same time?

i hate it.

but i love sugar

oh life is hard.

ha.

oh and today i was talking to a distant relative on FB and i found out that most of my line on my fathers side was Jewish and here close to me in Berlin is a Cemetary that my family set up with somthing like 100 thousand? Jews buried in it.

my family was killed in the war

they fleed from the war.

my history is here in Germany and so close to me in Poland.

its kind of crazy.

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

well im leaving another home

MERRY CHRISTMAS and A HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!


Wow it’s been a crazy year…

I really don’t know how to sum it all up! But God sure has taken me on an adventure, if I stop and think about it its hard to believe that this has been my life. From being in beautiful Hawaii where God totally broke off all these things in my life that I had been holding on to that were really crippling me.
To Panama where I was so challenged in who I ‘thought’ God was what I thought missions was. He totally stripped off all these preconceptions and I had to start learning all over again. It really challenged me on how I lived out this life of missions. This made me realize that I couldnt put any box around what I thought living out my faith and love for God should look like that it had to be in everything I did that I express the love of God. Then to come to South Africa. To see poverty next to the rich. To see the destruction because of things like racism and prejudice but also to see these things in my own heart. It was really hard. A big part of that journey was relying on God for my needs. Also really seeing how I have to listen to him and talk with him about issues such as finances, and not just expect it to turn up. I was really shown a whole other level of intimacy God longs for. How he longs for me to discuss and make choices for him with him in him. After he challenged me where my heart was with staying on track or not, I decided that this is where I should be at this point in my life, even if it was hard and to be honest it would be so much easier to come home and a lot of me wanted to. He then provided the money I needed the day before the final due day of our finances. It was awesome.

So it been a journey. And im so glad I have been able to do it with you all. All your encouragements and prayers have been so good. Just knowing that I have people around the world who care and are passionate about these things that are on my heart is amazing. I am now going on to Cairo Egypt. Where I will be for 3 weeks and we will be doing an extensive study of the bible, we will be following the journey of Paul. We will continue into Israel, turkey…this will be an amazing experience, of course our ministry through photography will come into play. One of the things we want is to come into each different country with a true honor for their culture. So the correct dress etc. this will be very interesting when it comes to not looking men in the eyes when speaking to them and things like that. Another thing is that I wont be using facebook for the time that I am there. This is because of security issues and for the protection of people working their already. Also when it comes to talking about ministry and God or Jesus I will use other words such as father..or talking to my dad. So if you could all go along with that in any emails you send to me. Please don’t use any words like evangelism or missions etc.

It would be awesome if you could all send your email addresses to my email gold_fish_5@hotmail.com today is the last day I will be on facebook so please send them there asap.

Please keep me in your prayers. Money is still the issue at the back of my mind I have m next school fees coming up and im once again in the position of not having any money haha.

Much love and blessings

Naomi